Confession of a helpless brother

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It had been days since she hadn't eaten properly. She would just stare at the food like it was a mystery and her eyes were supposed to solve it. When anyone touched her, she would jerk in awe and gulp everything in the plate in a haste. It was painful of a sight to watch Resha, a food lover lose interest in eating. Food wasn't the only struggle of her life those days. She had started a battle against sleep,laughter and precisely,herself.

Resha was just 18. The teenage hormones were taking a toll on her. She loved a guy who was probably of my age i.e. 4 years senior to her. She never talked to me about him though. Maybe she thought that I would scold her or complain it to Dad that she was into someone at that early age. How I wish she had taken the courage to speak up to me. How I wish I had created a comfort zone for my sister to share all those with me before it was too late.

As I mentioned earlier , my sister loved a guy. I am not sure about love since taking in mind her age and her maturity level , it could be mere infatuation. Anyways , she was into a guy who was a total hunk at college. He was her friend's brother. With guts and might , she approached him and poured her heart out but what she got in response was far from her expectation. That guy could have respected her feelings atleast or even in the worst case, he could have said a direct ""No"" and closed the topic but he made a joke out of her infront of his friends. What he did was , he laughed at her and shouted at her for having the nerves to propose a guy like him. "" ta jasto moti lai kosaile herda ta herdaina taile malai propose garne? "" These were the harsh words he projected at her as per the clarifications she mentioned in her diary. He humiliated her in social media and demeaned her self esteem to that level that she ended herself. Her immature mind and heart couldn't bear the pain of rejection and humiliation. My sister cut her veins was found in a pool of blood one evening. After beholding that sight , what happened to me and my parents can't be explained in words.

It is not that I didn't try helping my sister at all. Though I was not aware of what had exactly happened to her , I had received a hint that she was in despair. I did my level best in cheering her up and asking her about what had actually hurt her soul but all in vain. She never spoke to me as she was already into depression. Had I been close to her since the very beginning , maybe I could have saved her. Had I been a friend to her rather than a strict brother scolding her when she talked to any guy or didn't study , maybe we wouldn't have seen this day. Till today , I think of myself as a helpless brother filled with guilt.

Teenagers are always vulnerable towards taking wrong decisions. They take small things in mind and hurt themselves. This confession is to all those teens reading this :-
Please do not fall weak over anything. You are a strong person. If someone rejects you or defames you over your looks , please have the guts to defend yourself and say it loud and clear that : "" I am not only my physical appearance but the soul that resides inside me. Don't comment on me on things that I can't control but have been given by birth. I am my own version of beautiful. "" Infact people like that don't deserve to be in your life so , refrain from them. Remember , no one holds the power to destroy you . You need to stay strong for yourself , your family and the ones who love you.

And , to the elder brothers/sisters , parents reading this : Please create a comfortable platform for your teen siblings/children to talk to you and share things. You must scold them if they are wrong but you can do it in a subtle way too. Always staying strict can never let them open up to you .

This is all I wanted to say. Thanks for going through a long confession. smile emoticon